finishing thank you cards........

I sit up at midnight finishing thank you cards.......its really hard because instead of doing thank you cards for gifts you sent for Parker's funeral I feel i should be sending thank you cards for baby shower gifts....I should be thankful for the days I had for him because lately I have seen that some people aren't so lucky......I am lucky that I got to sit and watch him in the nicu........and hold him, and change his diapers even if it was only a few times.....I can't help but wonder what could have been.......what if he would have made it.....I think everyone should check out the song "Homesick" by Mercy Me.........great song......